Depression after the Loss..

Well, i think i feel btr now dat i am ready to talk abt it.... I have been suffering from post-miscarriage depression after d loss... I hate to hear ppl say "Its ok", "Nvrmd , ur stil young", "bla bla bla"... Seriously, dats a nasty thng to say... Its not Ok!!.. I hate to talk or listen abt certain things, see certain ppl... and i block myslf from bein reached by everyone... i choose d ppl i want to talk to o share with..I can stay witout eating o drinking fr days wo even feeling hungry...i can stare at black space wo realising wat im actually seeing or thinkng..i cannot make simple decisions....i just cant....

And i get agitated when ppl talk abt certain thngs...ther r some super dumb ones yang asked me abt my weight loss... its like, i loss my baby and u ask me abt my weightloss... i can clearly see ur intention to ask.. its not out of care dat thy asked such question... its like...even after i answerd dat im back to my pre-pregnancy weight...thy went on asking what was my pre-pregnancy weight... Like WTF!! If you dont know what to talk... dont make yourself stupid..N d best part, as i was bz layaning my emotions n posting on facebook..... ppl terasa its fr em.. Leave me alone... Ur not on my shoes n im not bothering any1's life... its my facebook.. it feels gud to talk to a wall atleast n ppl had to choose to find fault on that... one after one problem.. my periods went crazy as well... I had high cortisol level due to my stress n depression n caused my period to comebck aftr stopin fr 4-5 days....n finally one of d gynea asked me to see to seek medical help... I have learned that when ppl loss something very precious to them... DO NOT TELL THEM ITS OK......and just tell them u have no words to console them but if they want to talk... ur all ears to them...Do not listen with the intention to reply... let them cry as much s they want!!.Cry till d tears r dry...hold teir hands n make them feel loved and cared... N most importantly.. Do not say stupid things...Dont knw wht to say, dun say anything at all.. let em do all d talking if ur willing to listen.. if u dont, leave them alone...sadly i was left dealing wt all ths alone coz i din wan to disturb any1 wt my problm.. alwz been lik dat..n i went into furthr isolation..D oli person i was comfortble bein wt is my husbnd...nt even my mum...

I went into denial, n d momen ppl say o do stupid things.. i block them out.. I dun wana talk o see deir face.. It feels awful..my husband use to be so bz with work..i hardly can talk or share my feelings with him cz he is also efftd wt wat happend.... n whenevr i cry, he asks me to stop crying cz he cannot see me cryin.It felt so tuff fr havin dealin wt all ts thing in my head...im alone at home n all i can think is hw i cud have preventd d accdnt frm hapening o hw many weeks i were if i was stil preg nw.. My god!!.. This is madness.....n finally whn d Dr diagnosed me wt d depression n referd me back to my gynea so dat he can futhr decide...my husband realised what i have been goin tru all tis whle.. n thank god he had fnshd all hs work dat he is finaly free fr me... Went for a crazy holiday ..Drove all d way to Hat Yai n thn to Krabi.... Its extreme..n d speed boat ride wit big waves made me fight all my fears and emotions...i had no choice to back off o run away bt to deal wt it right thr n thn...one journey made all d diffrnce n nw i feel more calm n i dun cry whn i talk abt it anymor... i have aceptd d loss n gained my senses...bt i hate bein left alone....i wana b accompanied by my husbnd all d time nw..Hmmm...thers alwiz a beautfl rainbow after a storm... Ive learn to deal wt my emotions nw..

So d lesson learned...take time to layan ur emotion....n let ppl talk n cry.. its ok to cry.... its not ok to say its ok... hahahha.. Crazy huh!!.. D best part abt ths whle period is dat , ive learned dat im a very weak person deep inside....n this incident made me strong..My mind knws dat d worst thing dat could happen to some1 is death... n it wil come eventually....deal wt it. It takes time for evrythng...healing emotionally as wel... n Love is everytng u ned to survive ths life....n money of cz. I have to thank god fr ths experience..Ive learned what worked and what failed.. I have realised who i hv by my side n who jz wish to watch frm far... I dont hate them, i oli choose to stay away frm them..sometime all sum1 ned is a big big hug...n a tissue box. :)

Love,
Vatsala

Post ERCP Check-up....10/08/2012

My 1st check-up aftr d M/C....if i was pregnant.. i would have been 18 weeks now.... well, time changes all... i went alone cz hubby had some work....it feels so difrnt aftr d M/C... i felt diff at every stage of TTC.. Felt diff when i first did my Fertility investigation.... then the procedure.... n then d pregnancy.... n now after the loss... been tru a long journey.... neway... im yet to reach my finishing line..

Did a scan to c if there r any retained placenta tissue.... my lining was very thin... hardly cud c d 3 lines they alwiz talk abt... am still spotting now n then... probably wen i walk o doin hse work... Womb had returned to pre-pregnancy shape...Dr.W said sorry for the loss, he said he cudnt have done much coz he had already tried his best.... I know u did Dr... He's unsure what caused the water bag to leak... probably d bump, o a weak cervix..... so as said b4, he will stitch my cervix at 3mths on my next pregnancy... asked him when shall i come again fr my FET cycle... he said i need to wait for 3 mths atleast... i asked hm, if it was 3 mnths or 3 cycle... he said 3 months is guf enug...3 cycles can go way to long...so its gona be Aug, Sept n Oct...Ill be back to c him on NOV.... hmmm..... 3 months is not as easy s d numbers seem to be.... i gota pre-occupy myslf fr these 3 mths so dat it pass by fast...So what r d things i plan to do during these 3 months...

1. Get my driving license... haha... i know wat ur thinking!! yes, im 27 n i dun hv a DL....
2. Loose sum weight.... Well, im not overweight or wat... probably ill jz go for a walk with my new ZAGORA Flares pants....2 months challenge to loose some mini fat n to fill my evenings with something productive...
3. Hubby's office work.... am glad dat i can work from home... but that comes with housework as well... hmm..so i have got some time allocated to do office work in the afternoons...
4. Plan for some vacation or babymoons!!!
5. Go for facial n spa....for once i have to start thinking abt myself... n ignore others... ive decided to be selfish for once... seriosly, its a hard earned lesson of life n attitude.

6.Lotsa prayers....
7.Get d house cleaned for Diwali...
8.To love my husband more... :).... 9 years of knowing this man... i fought, cried, cursed, laughed, cooked, cleaned n done so much for this man... n yet i will continue to do so in more years to come... ive learned, that relationship grow stronger as years pass by... in my case, it grew stronger with every problems we faced together... I would sacrifice my whole life just to make him happy coz he does d same for me... anything for u n little baby.... I think you should tell your partner how much they mean to you... sometimes we forget to say how much som1 means to us due to work n bz life...take sometime... coz u never know when they r gone n what u have missed .... time is so precious that once gone...it never comes back...

Today i feel slightly better, it feels like ive reincarnated again... So i am waiting for November to come..n bein a woman is d most beautiful thing ever on earth... Love all.... XOXO

Miscarriage recovery.....

Recovery has been goin on well so far.... trust me it feels really gud to write abt it...makes u feel as if some1 is listening to you... anyway.... i still cry sumtimes... i cant help it... feel so empty that little baby is not there... n dat i dun feel pregnant anymore... it makes u crazy...i try to brush it off at times... but it easy said than done.. i dun feel like talking to certain ppl or talking abt certain things.. it feels as if d body doesnt want to talk abt it o rejects listening to it..guess it part of the recovery process...

Im amazed how ppl treat u while ur in pain... they say miscarriage is a common thing and to get over it... lik i said, its easier said than done... if u think that bein in d labor room giving birth to a dead baby is normal... i am not sure what to say abt it..its a trauma.. d pain stays in d heart for lifetime...I did not losse the baby cz i din want to be pregnant.. i lost it due to an accident and i cudnt save my baby... imagine trying to keep d baby in coz its still has a heartbeat and d amniotic fluid is running low... serisly, no1 shud undergo this pain ever in their life... physical recovery could be fast perhaps.... but emotionally, its like a roller coaster... recovery include, denial, blaming other /ourselves for what happened, accepting the loss n getting prepared to try again.... i am probably in between the third n fourth stage... I am glad that i have a supporting husband.....

My aunt n mom stayed with me for a few days n prepared so medicinal food for me to hv a fast recovery... i feel cold at times, so im equipped with socks and slip in's most of d time... I dun have appetite to eat... so weightloss has been prominent. My bowel evacuation has not been smooth since i had d contraction... 2 weeks ago... i gota be on those horrible ducolux pills... i get tummy cramps due to colic at times... i am still spotting to date.. i tot it was supposed to stop in a week... probably its due to my physical activities.. I bleed more when i walk too much..

Din have much ppl coming to visit me.....among em were hubby's frens fly, my close fren loges, n rita and her sis... dats all.. none of my in laws came to visit me... well, i used to visit em....help em to cook or help em with some work when they were sick.. so i was amazed none visited me... so d lesson learned is that, every1 has their own life... we dun need to be an angel to please every1 coz , it doesnt mean anything to them... when it comes to hardtimes, ppl dun wana share it with you... they only want to be there when ur happy... ive learned to keep a distance from those ppl. Even strangers try to help in wther emotionally n spiritually... i am nt asking u to sit n cry with me... atleast a visit... Dats a wake up slap for me... Thanks god, i had to learn it d hard way...

I have to keep myself occupied for the next 3/4 mths till i cud try again... i really hope my body recovers, emotionally n physically..probably, im strong mentally...thanks to my loved ones.. so i plan to go for a holiday.. color my hair or probably perm it.. hmmm..... facial and spa... n probably loose some weight... eat healthy and get my baby making machine in top condition agn.. haha!! Neway, thanks Kak Arena... u made me feel btr... n d best part is dat ... v never met b4... ill probably gv u a hug if i c u next tm... thanks fr ur caring words... Luv ya.. TC...

My next visit wit Dr.Wong is on d 10th August 2012... i have a list of questions to ask.... will update later.. till then, may god bless all.. XOXO

It was a Boy!! Post Miscariagge / Stillbirth....

Today has been nearly a week since d deadly bump....the recovery journey has been goin on well, tho im still coping wit the emotional breakdown once in a while... I miss the baby every now and then.. i miss d hunger waves i had n sleepless nitez he kept me awake... n those little kicks whic i adore d most.... Went to Sunway Med on Sunday cz i cudnt tolerate d engorgemnt of the breast as i was lactating. My breast felt like a stone n it was so painful.... poor body din knw dat baby is gone... This time, Dr.Wong came to visit me... probly he doesnt trust others anymore after d incident...o cz i was already considered as a high risk pregnancy case... he arrived within 10 minutes the A&E staff called him...Infact he was laughing cz he din xpct me to lactate this early cz i was only 17 weeks..

He checkd n prescribed Dostinex to stop lactation n adviced to put cabbage leaves to sooth the engorgement n stop milk... He said that he tried his best... but not to worry cz i was still young... my next appmnt is on d 10th August 2012...i asked him if he saw if it was a baby boy o girl... he said yea, it was a boy... i knew it that i was carrying a boy...i hardly had any syptm n i had d pregnancy glow.. ppl hardly knw dat i was pregnant....n no vomiting... he then asked my husband if he saw d baby... i cant remembr havin my husbnd nearby me during d delivery... i saw hm standing near d door til d Dr called him to explain abt d emergency D&C cz i wasnt cooperating  well with the pain while he removed d remaining bits of d placenta... Hubby said, he din c d baby cz he was more worried n cudnt stand c'ing me screaming in pain... Hubby then asked abt d remaining frozen embryo that we plan to put in anothr 3/4 months time...Dr said that they dun throw away d embryo's but we have to pay d maintenance fee on our next visit... He said, i din xpct fr u to hv so much of milk anyway u will have alot of milk when u deliver next time... i am glad cz i had always been hoping dat i will breastfeed my child... 

Ive been writing letters to little baby.... it helps me calm myslf cz im still hoping that he will come back to me when i conceive d nat time... i knw d GOD up there is taking care of my little baby for ths few mnths... Mayb i will go get some things fr him n keep it... ive nt been crying too much... i just dun afford to cary cz i dun want to be weak... i need to recover so dat i could carry a baby again... Who knows, mayb the next tm little baby brings along a brother o sister with him.... I am ok if tat is what u want sayang... bt jz come back to mama ok... this tm i wont allow anything to happen to u... I love u litle baby... Lotsa hugs n Kisses...

16 weeks and "The End"

I lost my little baby at 16 weeks.. due to my water bag leaked into d vagina and it was irreversible despite all medical intervention... it was due to an impact cz hubbby ran over a bump on d road... not at all hs fault.. he has eye sight prob n usually if i am sitting beside hm i will look out fr d holes n bumps on d road so dat he cud slow down. d bump was a high one cz thy newly mend d road but thy have paint the yellow stripes yet... n when hubby drove over it, i felt d impact... it was like a pressure on my vagina.... i went back home n slept off ignoring d back pain...this happened around 4.30p.m n when i woke up aron 7.30p.m i had a dull pain on my back.. tot it was probably due to d bump jz nw cz i usualy hv ts backache sometime... tuk a hot shower n d pain wen off.... felt hungry n hubby said he gota go to KL so v shall eat on d way back... din have any pain in d car... then when v were driving back, felt like goin to d loo... had slight backpain n lower abdominal cramp aftr peeing... told hubby dat need to go fr a scan jz to make sure evrything was alrite... all d woman's clinic were closed so opted fr a normal GP wit ultrasound facilities.. during d ultarsound... baby was fine... kicking n HB was normal... Dr said he cudnt c any bleeding in d placenta.... n d water was enug... had cramps again when i was walking back from the clinic... when fr dinner.. n had cramps again... i cud hardly sit straight.. while driving back hm.. felt like having diarrhea cramps.. so ran into d toilet as soon s i went back hm... felt d cramps n back pain intensify after my diarhea.. slept straight on d couch n n pain goes off... when i turn to my side it comes back... hubby said just sleep it off... probably due to d bump jz nw .. i will b ok tmw.. tis tm evrytm i had d cramp i had to run to d toilet to pee... n then i hardly can walk back out... i called d sunfert careline n d nurse said if thers no bleeding u can come in tmrw morning.. otrws u can walk in into d A n E nw... I decided to go in d  morning n wen to d room to sleep... aron 12.11a.m... googled abt preterm labor n found out dat my symptoms r similar... probably abt 30 mins later had d same pain cmin back again... ths is when i felt thers sometin seriosly wrong.... so hubby said let go to d hosp... i was already crying in pain during tis 30 min interval cramps...

Rushed to hospital n dr AnE dr scanned again n said baby was fine... n there was no bleeding n its nt a contraction cz otrwise it wudnt subside wit change in position... i had 2 waves of cramps again when i was in d AnE... n yet d Dr din suspect anytin wrong... called my gynea n said probably its due to food n ordered sum pain killers n proluton shots... n adviced to admit so dat he can visit  me d next morn... agreed n admited myself n hubby left back home... aron 3a.m, while in d room... felt hungry n requested fr sum hot drinks so dat i can go to sleep.... after a cup of milo, wen to pee n found out that my panty was soaking wit blood... immediately alerted d nurses n asked em to call my Dr immediately.. had d cramps again durng tis tm.. dr arrived in 15mins time n scanned d baby... he said d water bag leaked into d vagina n dat my cervix is open.. n wat i tot cramps was actually contractions of d womb...he said it was a bad news in he wud try to reverse it if it possible by stopping d contractions bt d chances r very poor n transferred me to d labor room..  

he scanned aron 12p.m n said d water has moved more to d vagina but has not burst yet.. baby was fine.. bt it has less water aron it... he said we wl c fr another 12 hours n c if it goes back... however my contractions started again soon aftr dat despite d medication, another scan revealed dat d membrane was already tensed n d baby's head was engaging in d cervix... he said i had to deliver d baby...

finally my water bag broke n soon later d baby was out... placenta was still intact n dr had to pull it out.. i cudnt tolerate d pain so he wanted to do an emergency D&C to clear d remaining placenta...

everything happend too fast... everytm i closed my eyes i wished i was having a nightmare... but it was all happening fr real.. i saw d baby in a glance... im so sorry baby... mama tried my best to save u... probably god loved u more than me..

probably d pain during d labor was nt as much s d pain of losing d baby... i will never want any1 , not even my enemy to go tru this kind of horror in their life... little baby was gone...i cudnt write more, its overwhelming to except d loss. I hope all those whom have conceived to bcareful while driving at any cost at all.... its nt worth losing a life .... Dr said it cud b 2 reasons... probably due to incompetent cervix n d bump was juz a co-incidence dat started d contraction o secondly it was due to d bump n d cervix open soon after dat.... n d uterus started contractng n pushed d waterbag out to d vagina... nt sure when i will come out of this... but i have to fr d sake of my husband... we mite try again after 3 months... n i wish all d best to all woman out there...

Litlle baby, u will alwiz b my first born...my little guardian angel... ur birthday will be 26th July 2012.. n i will pray every year on this day dat may u lead a happy life up there.... mama love u...appa love u... May u rst in peace ........n i still hope dat u wl come back to me..

With lots of grieve,
Mama.....

15 weeks and little flutters...

Hmmm... felt like d litle baby ws kicking.... hmmm...nt sure la.. bcz tis d first tm i feel it kan... bet anyway.. feels like sumtin popping .....mayb like bowel movement.... hmm... nt sure... but its constant....spcly aftr food.. u noty baby!!! am sure ur so uncomfortable cz mama is alwiz eating.. hahha.. poor baby...

Fear...

Hubby came back home today n told me dat one of hs frens wife miscaried at 20 weeks... n tetiba teringat one of my kazin sis yg miscaried at 18 weeks n 24 weeks .. tis is so scary... one of my blog fren was admitted to undrgo cervical cerclage... oh god ... y do we have to go tru all tis... n some of them can have 15 kids non stop those days n having to wrk really hard to make money.... n on d otr side... we have to spend so much money to have a baby n total bed rest cz of d high risk pregnancy....I really hope my litlle baby is fine n healthy inside....

N my new discovery dat my hubby mite b a thalassemia gene carrier.... hmmmm...... hes suffering frm mild anemia.... thank god u did d bloodtest aby... nw i gota make sure that im nt a carrier as well... otrwise i cud b in d high risk group as well.... i muz tell tis 2 d dr on my next visit...

13 weeks and insomia..

Finally i have entered my second trimester... little i had faith dat i will reach ts far.. thanks to d all mighty god's blessings. I still have headache wic is managable wit 500mg of panadol.... i hardly had headache all ts years... probably 2/3 times a year... n nw it seem like a daily routine.. n my sleep patern is haywire.. thank god im nt working... so i can doze off any time during d day o nite..nothing seem to help me sleep... nt sure wat to blame... d calcium supplements o my hormones... d only thing worked so far was shopping... hmmm.. takkanla wana go shopping everyday kan!! n d best part is dat my husband mimics all my symptom... bt i think he has it at worst cz he feels like vomiting evry morning, headache, hungry all d tm , insomnias  n d growing belly... hahaha.... Cauvade symptom.... so funny.. Mayb sebab i once told him dat some husband's will have phantoms pregnancy wen d wife is pregnant... then he terus have all d symptoms... man r so funny... anyway, id b glad if he is willing to tc of d baby at night after d baby is born wt hs fake pregnancy n i can get my beauty sleep.... hahahhaha!!

Baby was fine during d scan... had d down syndrome test n nuchal scan ts time... during d scan, d sonographer looks fr d space at d back of d neck... it shudnt b more than 3mm.. nt sure mm ke cm....mine was less than 1.25..anyway, baby was bz positioning itself sebab uncomfortable... kept moving d neck dat d sonographer had to wait fr sm tm... n moving its hands n legs as usual... such a joy to luk at these on screen. Dr said baby is developing well n healthy. he also started me on some calcium supp n neurogain (DHA n EPA) fr baby's optimal growth. I asked him several common Q during pregnancy like, can i travel? Can v b together again? Can i resume doin housework?(wic i already started long ago).... he said sure.. go ahead.. hehhehe... Also had informed him about a small patch of rash on my tummy n my headache.. he asked me to take 2 tab of panadol n asked me to do light exercise for my insomnia... n take lotsa rest. n hubby had to interrupt n say dat d only thing im doin at home is resting...bla bla bla....then whose doin all d hse work n cooking fr u baby?? hmmm.... i only gained abt 200grm tis tm... wic is very unlikely bcz im alwiz eating.. d only thing dat constantly keeps me goin is food.. i eat every 2 hours... hmmmm.... hope i dun put too much of baby weight...neway,,,, baby, mama luv u... till then tc ait...c u on 17th week checkup ok....mwah!!!

P/s: Mama started to do a baby journal of u..... nt as elaborate as these blogs... perhaps more personalized fr my little baby.. :p

12 weeks n still hungry!!!

Im almost 3 mnths now!! am glad dat d waiting period is finally over.. bt guess i shud take things easy fr d next 2 o 3 mnths...Hubby went to China on business purpose n im left rotting at my mother in law's hse... So dead bored dat i ended up cleaning d hse junks.. saw sum frozen lizards dead in d freezer.. poor guys!! din bring enug cloths fr teir vacation... hahaha!!!

Anyway, i was telling my husband d other day dat i cud feel d heartbeat of d baby wen i put my palms on my tummy....n tol him to feel it.. he said he cant feel anything... hmmm!!! Im probably hallucinating.. o probably im rite n he is wrong..

I am still hungry for d time being... but i need not wake up in d middle of d night to grab sumtin to eat... no cravings.. i like variety of food.. but in small quantities.. maybe i just nibble a little of each... started drinking Anmum... i think Choc flavor tastes btr than d original.. yuks!!! I have headache now and then... eventho i soak my head wt minyak cap kapak... i need to grab those panadols... read it on d bet dat its safe to take panadols during pregncy....but its my savior.. i also hv some swollen feet... nt too much bt i cud c d swelling... hmmm... n my baby bumb is shwin already... thanks 2 d massive food ive been eating... ok vats, u shud really stop eating... n d next minute im digging sumtin to eat.. haiz!!!

i din c my little baby fr 2 weeks already... my ceckup is nex wek...ok baby, mama will c u soon.. till then mama will send lotsa hugs n kisses to u....

10 weeks update..

Yesterday was my 10 weeks check-up.... n guess wat i saw...!!! hahaha!!

My little angel was happily dancing inside... it was like bz shaking its hands n legs... probably felt cold due to d gel dat was applied during d ultrasound... I cant believe my eyes!! hmmm... truly a miracle.. I hope u dun dance lik dat wen ur out ok..probably i wont have d energy to run after u then.. Hubby was smiling again lukin at his baby's moves.. laughed till my belly was shaking... n d image of d ultrasound disappeared.. n d sonographer told me not to move.. hahaha!! padan muka.... But baby, ur so notty.. mama din expect this from u at this stage of development.. 

Symptoms

Hungry as usual... constipated.. i really need to do sumtin abt ths.. n...........very warm.. nt sure if its d weather o just me.. n spotting... last week spotted red clots (Sorry TMI) n rushed to Sunway Med Emergency dptmnt... Scan revealed baby's heartbeat was fine n happily swimming.. but cudnt hear d heartbeat sebab its kinda really old machine. boleh masuk muzium la dat machine!! wen back home n was advicd to take bed rest.. i was supposed to call in for appoinmnt as d Dr will b back on Sat... n was totally flabbergasted cz he already have 56 pts in q for Sat appmnt... n it was a half day clinic... hmmmmm... so decided to behave my self n take a gud rest till d spotting resolves on its own... o did i just say dat cz i had a mild cleaning session cz my stupid part time maid decided not to answer hr phn..Anyway, baby was behaving well... no spotting...oli cramping now n then.

Dr Appmnt

He said ultrasound was fine.. d baby is developing really well to date.. n d heartbeat is fast.. 184 beats/min.. n he said ther is no bleeding in d uterus fr tm being.. however my placenta is kinda low so probably its d reason i spotted... Gave med for my constipation.. (TQ Dr) hahha!!!! n my nex scan is 3 weeks frm now..  

9 weeks update n d eclipse terror

9 Weeks Pregnant.

Symptoms
-Insomnia... hungry... less nausea... , increased urination at night, low blood pressure.. tender breast n irritability...skirts getin tighter... hmmm!!!

Emotion
- Very irritated with certain noises. Spcly wen hubby is snoring... felt like throwin a big rock on his head. Dahla susah wana sleep... he adds in wit his DTS sound systm.Happy ... cz hubby got us a new car.. Hubby n his bimmers.... neway, i have to no more experience d backache cz my Waja was addin on to it. I felt dat i cud feel d glow of pregnancy... i pun not sure hw to diffrntiate.. sebab, my skin is much softer n oily. Btr than my dry skin wic was peelin n patchy...

Eclipse


4th Jun 2012  4.48p.m till 9.18p.m was eclipse ... i guess it was lunar eclipse.. Anyway, it was so scary coz i had family members kept on telin me this and dat.. do's n don'ts.. pantang larang la... bal bla bla.. Haiz.. i knw v r not supposed to c d eclipse with naked eyes.. bt, thers too many other superstition dat was bothering me.. i just follwed nevertheles... bukanya rugi apa pun.. juz was super duper cooper hungry... i can hardly find d kata ganda for hungry... but i was really hungry. n d best part, v shud not eat d food cooked b4 d eclipse.. so i had to wait till 9.18p.m to shower n cook. 

Antara Do's n Donts that was told was....

1. No cutting vegetables or anything.. 
2. No sewing
3. No eating n drinking
4. No goin out of d hse..
5. No doin any hse work..
6. Cannot eat food cooked b4 eclipse
7. Altar shud b clossed.
8. No wearing any metal on d body.

Neway, i wasnt convinced so i tried google d effects as per hinduism...adding on to the list above was.. Taken from http://www.swaminarayan.nu/useful/eclipse.shtml.

Before Eclipse:

1. Wash clothes used for puja and others, your house, temple should be cleaned.
   
2. Bed, Blankets, etc. are to be dusted or exposed to sunlight.
   
3. Food made by mixing flour and water should not be eaten, do not keep drinking water in a pot.
   
4. After Eclipse is over, do not touch clothes before taking bath. So, before eclipse begins, put aside clothes/towel etc. to be used after your bath.
   
5. Prepare the place for worship during eclipse, do not use cotton sheets to sit on, such sheets should be dusted and put away.
   
6. Do not eat during eclipse and vedh (9 hours before Lunar eclipse starts and 12 hours before Solar eclipse starts).
   
7. Put aside other activities and plan to spend time doing Dhun/Kirtan.

During Eclipse:

1. Spend your time doing Dhun/Kirtan, reading/listening scriptures etc.
   
2. Pray to god to protect us from the vices like lust, and anger.

After Eclipse:

1. Take bath/shower with all clothes and then only touch/wear clean clothes.
   
2. Grihasth (Householders) should donate for good causes, Tyagi (Saints) should do puja of God.
   
3. Prepare food for God, offer Him food and take the prasad.
   
4. After taking bath/shower only, one should touch God or do the normal activities.
   

It is desirable to have a temple or an organization arrange Dhun/Kirtan program during the eclipse.

AND this...taken from astropeep.com....

Pregnant women are most delicate people to look after at the time of Surya or Chandra Grahan. Pregnant women should take some precautions to avoid bad effects of Surya Grahana or Chandra Grahana.

• The first and foremost precaution that every pregnant woman has to take is to avoid seeing or looking at the Grahana. Even though, it is visible to naked eye, pregnant women should avoid watching grahana.
• Stay at home and do not go out side during the grahana.
• There is a strong belief in some Hindus that wearing or tightening saree clips, hair clips or any other pins or clips will be inauspicious. Avoid wearing or tightening clips.
• Avoid cutting vegetables or fruits or any other material.
• In some regions, pregnant women avoid sleeping during the Grahana.
• For normal and safe delivery, pregnant women recite Santana Gopala data Mantram and Surya Stotras like Aditya Hridayam and other Surya Mantras, Maha Mritunjaya Stotram.
• Santana Gopala Stotra (a mantra to chant during graham by pregnant women) keeps up the health of the pregnant woman as well as the child (Garbhastha Shishu).

Grass blades (Durva or Garika or Darbha) are kept on stored water and food during the time Grahan. It is not a blind ritual. Its proven scientifically that Grass blades purify the water more than Tulsi (Ocimum) leaves can during Grahanam. Grass blades have immediate purifying power. This is the main reason why grass blades are kept on stored water and food like pickles.

Tulsi (ocimum Basilicum) is treated as the abode of Vishnu- Lakshmi(husband and wife) and as Rahu and Ketu were decapitated by Lord Vishnu, placing Tulsi on eatables protects food from the malefic effects of the radiation caused during the eclipse.

 Banyaknya nak kena follow..

So what i did was...

1. Cleaned d hse b4 eclipse... did all d hse work.
2. prepared stuff for cooking.
3. cleaned d altar
4. closed all d windows and curtains.
5. Ate b4 4.48p.m.
6. Kept turmeric water at d entrance for hubby to wash his feet b4 comin into d hse.
7. Once eclipse startd, i chanted d santana gopala mantra and ashtrotam.
8. wait  till 9.18p.m... tuk shower.. started cooking n prayed.
9. Opened all d windows and doors to allow fresh air and sprinkled turmeric water aron d hse.
10. Ate like a pig ... hahha.. 

Some useful TTC Acronyms & Abbreviations..

For those of u whom r new to TTC, im sure some of the acronyms n abbreviations seem to b strange to u.. here are some compilation of em... could b very usefl while reading ttc blogs coz, v alwiz use code words.. haha!!

A

• ACA  = Anti-Cardiolipin Antibodies 
• ACOG = AmericanCollegeof Obstetricians and Gynecologists
• ACTH =  Adrenal Corticotropic Hormone 
• AF =  Aunt Flo (menstruation, menstrual period) 
• AFAIK As Far as I Know
• AFK Away From Keyboard
• AFNW =  Aunt Flo Not Wanted 
• AH, AZH =  Assisted Hatching 
• AI =  Artificial Insemination 
• AIIC As If I Care
• AISI As I See It
• AKA Also Known As
• ANA =  Anti-Nuclear Antibodies 
• ANFAWFOS And Now a Word From Our Sponsor
• AO: Annovulatory
• APA = Anti-Phospholipid Antibodies 
• APTT = Activated Partial Thromboplastin Time  
• ART = Assisted Reproductive Technology 
• ASA = Anti-Sperm Antibody 
• ASAFP As Soon As Freakin' Possible
• ASAP As Soon As Possible
• ASRM =  American Society of Reproductive Medicine 
• ATA = Anti-Thyroid Antibody 
• AVA = Anti-Ovarian Antibody
• AYF All Your Fault

B

• BA: Baby Aspirin
• Babydust: Fairy dust, good luck getting pregnant
• BAIK Boy Am I Confused
• BAK Back At Keyboard
• BB's: Breasts
• BBT =  Basal Body Temperature 
• BBT: Basal Body Temperature
• BC: Birth Control
• BCP = Birth Control Pills 
• BCP: Birth Control Pills
• BD = Baby Dancing (Love Making) @ also means twice daily for taking medications.
• BF Boy Friend
• BFN = Bloody f%^*$#g negative (refering to a negative pregnancy test) 
• BFN Bye For Now
• BFN: Big Fat Negative (test result)
• BFP = Bloody f%^*$#g positive (refering to a positive pregnancy test) 
• BFP: Big Fat Positive (test result)
• BIL: Brother-in-Law
• BMS = Baby-Making Sex 
• BNF Big Name Fan
• BNI Batteries Not Included
• BOC But Of Course
• BOF Birds of a Feather (Special Interest Group)
• BOS Big Orange Switch (Panic Button)
• BOT Back on Topic
• BRB Be Right Back
• BRS Big Red Switch (Panic Button)
• BS Bulls*
• BSEG Big S* Eating A Grin
• BTDT Been There, Done That
• BTDT: Been There Done That
• BTFM Beats the Funk out of Me
• BTFT Been There, Fixed That
• BTW By the way
• BTW: By The Way
• BUGS Bloody User Generated Symptoms
• BW or B/W: Blood Work

C

• C&B Crash & Burn
• CAH = Congenital Adrenal Hyperplasia 
• CASA = Computer-Assisted Semen Analysis 
• CATCH Come Again? That Can't Help!
• CB: Cycle Buddy (someone who shares the same menstrual cycle/ovulation dates)
• CCCT= Clomiphene Citrate Challenge Test(Clomid Challenge) 
• CD = Cycle Day
• CE Creative Editing
• CF =  Cervical Fluid
• Chromo = Chromopertubation
• CIAO Goodbye
• CL: Corpus luteum
• CM = Cervical Mucus
• CMV = Cytomegalovirus
• CNM = Certified Nurse Midwife
• COTFLGOHAHA Crawling on the Floor Laughing Guts Out and Having a Heart Attack
• CP: Cervical position
• CSY Can't Stop Yawning
• CU Cracking Up
• CUL Catch You Later (Goodbye)
• CUL8R See You Later
• CVS = Chorionic Villi Sampling
• CWYL Chat With You Later
• CY: Cycle
• CYA Cover Your Ass
• CYA See Ya

D

• D&C = Dilation and Curettage
• D&C Duck & Cover
• D&E = Dilation and Evacuation
• DBA Doing Business As
• DBN Doing Business Not
• DD: Dear/Darling Daughter
• DE = Donor Eggs
• DES = Diethylstilbestrol (a synthetic estrogen)
• DH: Dear/Darling Husband
• DI = Donor Insemination
• DIAFYO Did I Ask For Your Opinion
• DILLIGAFF Do I look Like I give a Flying Figment?
• DIPI = Direct Intra-Peritoneal Insemination
• DITUIHIBMSL Did I Tell You I Hate IBMs Lately
• DITUILIBMSL Did I Tell You I Love IBMs Lately
• DNPM Damn Near P*ed Myself
• DOST = Direct Oocyte-Sperm Transfer
• DP = Dear Partner
• DP: "Dancing" partner; spouse or significant other
• DPO = Days Post-Ovulation
• DS: Dear/Darling Son
• DSOP = Dear Significant Other Person
• DTD: Doing the dance, sex
• DUCWIC Do You See What I See?
• DUCWIM Do You See What I Mean?
• DUHWIH Do You Hear What I Hear?
• DW = Dear Wife
• DW: Dear/Darling Wife
• Dx = Diagnosis

E

• E2 = Estradiol
• E2: Estradiol
• E2EG Ear to Ear Grin
• EB, EMB = Endometrial Biopsy
• EDD: Estimated Due Date
• Endo = Endometriosis
• EOD End of Discussion
• EOL End of Lecture
• EPO: Evening Primrose Oil
• EPT: Early Pregnancy Test
• ESAD Eat S* And Die
• ESAL Eat S* And Live
• ET: Embryo Transfer
• ETA = Embryo Toxicity Assay
• ETF = Embryo Toxic Factor
• ETLA Enhanced TLA
• EW=Egg White Consistency (refering to CM)
• EWCM: Eggwhite cervical mucus

F

• FAQ Frequently Asked Questions
• FET: Frozen Embryo Transfer
• FIGMO Forget It, I've Got My Orders
• FIIN F* if I Know
• FIL: Father-in-Law
• FITB Fill In the Blank
• FM Fine Magic
• FM: Fertility Monitor
• FMU: First morning urine
• FOAD F* off and Die
• FOAF Friend of a Friend
• FOAFOAG Father of a Friend of a Girlfriend
• FOAG Father of a Girlfriend
• FOT Full of Tripe
• FP: Follicular Phase
• FRE: First Response Early
• FRZ Freakin' Religious Zealot
• FSH  =  Follicle Stimulating Hormone
• FTASB Faster than a Speeding Bullet
• FTL Faster than Light
• FTTA  =  Fertile Thoughts to All
• FUA Frequently Used Acronyms
• FUBAR Fouled Up (!) Beyond All Recognition (or Repair)
• FUMTU F*ed up More Than Usual
• FUR: False Unicorn Root
• FWIW For what it's worth
• FYA For Your Action
• FYEO For Your Eyes Only
• FYI For Your Information
• FYO For Your Opinion

G

• GASP Go Away, Silly Person!
• GCT  =  Glucose Challenge Test
• GD&R Grinning, Ducking and Running
• GD&RVVF Grinning, Ducking and Running Very Very Fast
• GF Girl Friend
• GF: Girlfriend
• GGN Gotta Go Now
• GIFT  =  Gamete Intra-Fallopian Transfer
• GIGO Garbage In, Garbage Out
• GIWIST Gee I Wish I'd Said That
• GMTA Great Minds Think Alike
• GnRH  =  Gonadotropin Releasing Hormone
• GOMF Get Outta My Face
• GP  =  General Practitioner
• GRUIT Get Reay yoU Impudent Thing
• GTFOOMF Get the F* Out of My Face
• GTT  =  Glucose Tolerance Test

H

• H&H: Happy and Healthy
• HAND Have A Nice Day
• hCG =  Human Chorionic Gonadotropin (pregnancy hormone)
• HCG = Human Chorionic Gonadotropin
• HEPA = Hamster Egg Penetration Assay
• HHO1/2K Ha Ha Only Half Kidding
• HHOK Ha Ha Only Kidding
• HMG = Human Menopausal Gonadotropin
• HOMPR Hang On, Mobile Phone's Ringing
• HPT = Home Pregnancy Test
• HRT =  Hormone Replacement Therapy
• HRT = Hormone Replacement Therapy
• HSC =  Hysteroscopy
• HSG =  Hysterosalpingogram
• HSG = Hysterosalpingogram
• HTH Hope This Helps
• HWS(PEST) Husband Wants Sex (Please Excuse Slow Typing)
• Hx = History

I

• IAC In Any Case
• IAE In Any Event
• IANAL I Am Not A Lawyer, also IANA... such as CPA
• IANALBIPOOTV I Am Not A Lawyer, But I Play One On TV
• IARTPFWTSIOWIM I am Repeating this Parrot fashion without the slightest idea of what it Means
• IBC Inadequate But Cute
• IBM Inadequate But Marketable
• ICI = Intra-Cervical Insemination
• ICSI =  Intra-Cytoplasmic Sperm Injection
• ICSI = Intra-Cytoplasmic Sperm Injection
• ICUR I See You Are
• IDGABTT It Don't Get Any Better Than This
• IDGAD I Don't Give a Damn
• IDGAS I Don't Give a S*
• IDTS I Don't Think So
• IF =  Infertility
• IIRC If I Remember Correctly
• IITYWTMWYBMAD If I Tell You What This Means Will You Buy Me A Drink?
• IITYWTMWYKM If I Tell You What This Means, Will You Kiss ME?
• ILIWTPCT I Love It When the Plan Comes Together
• ILSHIBAMF I Laughed so Hard I Broke All my Furniture
• IM =  Intramuscular
• IM = Intramuscular (injections)
• IMBO In My Biased Opinion
• IMCO In My Considered Opinion
• IMHO In My Humble Opinion
• IMNSHO In My Not So Humble Opinion
• IMO =  In My Humble Opinion
• IMO In My Opinion
• IMVHO In My Very Humble Opinion
• INF - Infertility
• INPO In No Particular Order
• Internet Acronyms
• IOR = Immature Oocyte Retrieval
• IOW In other words
• IRL In Real Life
• ITI = Intra-tubal Insemination
• IUD Insert Usual Disclaimers
• IUGR = Intrauterine Growth Restriction
• IUI = Intrauterine Insemination
• IVF = In Vitro Fertilization
• IVIg = Intravenous Immunoglobulin
• IYKWIM =  If You Know What I Mean

J

• JK Just Kidding

K

• KISS Keep It Simple Stupid
• KMA Kiss my A*
• KWIM =  Know What I Mean
• KWIM Know What I Mean?

L

• L8R Later
• LAD = Leukocyte Antibody Detection Assay
• LAGNAF Lets All Get Naked and Fool Around
• LAP = Laparoscopy
• LH = Luteinizing Hormone
• LIT = Leukocyte Immunization Therapy
• LLTA Lots and Lots of Thunderous Applause
• LMFAO Laughing My F* A* Off
• LMP = Last Menstrual Period (start date)
• LMTTA Leave Me the F* Alone
• LO = Love Olympics (Love Making)
• LOL = Laughing Out Loud
• LOL Laughing Out Loud
• LP =  Luteal phase
• LPD = Luteal Phase Defect
• LTIP Laughing Til I Puke
• LUF = Luteinized Unruptured Follicle

M

• M
• MC, m/c, misc. = Miscarriage
• MCBTY(SN) My Computer is Better than Yours (So Nyerrr)
• MESA = Microsurgical Epididymal Sperm Aspiration
• MF =  Male Factor
• MFG More Friendly Garbage
• MFM = Maternal-Fetal Medicine (High Risk Ob)
• MHDC(A) My Hard Drive Crashed (Again)
• MMIF My Mouth Is Full
• MS =  Morning Sickness
• MYOB Mind Your Own Business

N

• NAA! Not Another Acronym!
• NBD No Big Deal
• NERD National Establishment for Real Dorks
• NEST = Non-surgical Embryonic Selective Thinning
• NFA No Flaming Allowed
• NFW No F*ing Way
• NIMBY Not in My Back Yard
• NJTH Not Just Thinking Here
• NK = Natural Killer Cells (CD56+)
• NO = No Ovulation
• NOMS Not on MY System
• NORIF = Non-Stimulated Oocyte Retrieval in (office) Fertilization
• NP =  Nurse Practitioner
• NRN No Reply Necessary
• NSA = Non-Surgical Sperm Aspiration
• NST = Non-Stress Test
• NTL Nevertheless
• NUNP No Users, No Problems

O

• O =  Ovulation
• OATUS On a Totally Unrelated Subject
• OAUS On a Related Subject
• OB =  Obstetrician
• OB/GYN = Obstetrician/Gynecologist
• OC =  Oral Contraceptives
• OCT = Oxytocin Challenge Test
• OD = Once daily.
• OHSS =  Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome
• OIC Oh, I See
• OMG =  Oh My Gosh
• ONNA Oh No, Not Again
• ONNTA Oh No, Not This Again
• OOSOOM Out of Sight, Out of Mind
• OOTC Obligatory On-Topic Comment
• OPK =  Ovulation Predictor Kit
• OT =  Off Topic
• OTC =  Over-the-counter
• OTC Over the Counter
• OTFM Only the Facts, Mam
• OTOH On the other hand
• OTTOMH Off the Top of My Head
• OTTOMHAROOB Off the Top of My Head and Rolling Out of Bounds
• OTW On the Whole
• OWTTE Or Words to that Effect

P

• P4 =  Progesterone
• PA =  Physician's Assistant
• PBKAC Problem Between Keyboard and Chair
• PC =  Post-Coital
• PCO, PCOD = Polycystic Ovary Disease
• PCOS = Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
• PCP =  Primary Care Physician
• PCT = Post-Coital Test
• PESA = Percutaneous Epididymal Sperm Aspiration
• PFM Pure Freaking Magic
• PG = Pregnant
• PGD = Preimplantation Genetic Diagnosis
• PI = Primary Infertility
• PID = Pelvic Inflammatory Disease
• PIO =  Progesterone In Oil
• PITA Pain In The Ass
• PLI = Paternal Leukocyte Immunization
• PMETC Pardon Me, etc.
• PMS = Pre-Menstrual Syndrome
• PMYMHMMFSWGAD Pardon Me, You Must Have Mistaken Me for Someone Who Gives A Damn
• POAS =  Pee On A Stick
• POF = Premature Ovarian Failure
• POQ P* Off Quickly
• POQADCB P* Off Quickly and Don't Come back
• POV Point of View
• PUPO Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise
• PPP Petty Pet Peeve
• PROM = Premature Rupture of Membranes
• PTMM Please Tell Me More

R

• RE = Reproductive Endocrinologist (Infertility specialist)
• R-hFSH = Recombinant Human Follicle Stimulating Hormone
• RI = Reproductive Immunologist
• ROFFNAR Rolling on the Floor for no Apparent Reason
• ROFL Rolling on Floor Laughing
• ROFLMAO Rolling on Floor Laughing My Ass Off
• ROFLOL Rolling on the Floor Laughing Out Loud
• ROFLOLBAG Rolling on the Floor Laughing Out Loud Busting a Gut
• ROFPML Rolling on the Floor P*ing Myself Laughing
• ROS = Reactive Oxygen Species
• ROTBA Reality on the Blink Again
• RPL = Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
• RSA = Recurrent Spontaneous Abortion
• RSN Real Soon Now [which may be a long time coming]
• RTFI Read the Friendly Instructions
• RTFM Read the Freakin' manual!
• RTFMA Read the Manual, Sir!
• Rx = Prescription

S

• S/A =  Sperm/semen analysis
• SA = Semen Analysis
• SAHD =  Stay At Home Dad
• SAHM =  Stay At Home Mom
• SAR Some Assembly Required
• SART = Society of Assisted Reproductive Technology
• SBCN Sitting Behind the Computer, Naked
• SHG =  Sonohysterogram
• SHM S* Happens, Mate
• SI = Secondary Infertility
• SICS Sitting in Chair Snickering
• SIIN S* if I Know
• SIL =  Sister-in-Law
• SITD Still in the dark
• SLE = Systemic Lupus Erythematosus
• SNAFU SituationNormal: All Fouled (!) Up
• SO =  Significant Other
• SO Significant Other
• SOE Silly/Stupid Operator Error
• SOL Still Out of Luck (or something thereabouts <g>)
• Sono HSG =  Sonohysterogram
• SOP Standard Operational Procedure
• SPA = Sperm Penetration Assay
• STD = Sexually Transmitted Disease
• SUZI = Sub-Zonal Insertion

T

• TANJ There Aint No Justice -- Niven
• TANSTAAFL There Ain't No Such Thing As A Free lunch
• TCB Taking Care of Business
• TDMATBICPLY This Doesn't Mean A Thing But It Confuses People Like You
• TeBG = Testosterone-Estradiol-Binding Globulin
• TESE = Testicular Sperm Extraction
• TET = Tubal Embryo Transfer
• TGAL Think Globally, Act Locally
• TIA =  Thanks in advance
• TIA Thanks In Advance (also AtDhVaAnNkCsE)
• TIC Tongue in cheek
• TINALO This is Not a Legal Opinion
• TINAR This is Not a Recommendation
• TINWIS That is Not What I Said
• TL =  Tubal Ligation
• TLA Three Letter Acronym (such as this)
• TM Trust Me
• TMI =  To Much Information
• TNOTVS There's Nothing on Television, so...
• TORCH = Toxoplasmosis, Other, Rubella, Cytomegalovirus, and Herpes test
• TPS(S) This Program Sucks, (Severely)
• TPTB The Powers That Be
• TR =  Tubal Reversal
• TRDMC Tears Running Down My Cheeks
• TRH =  Thyroid Releasing Hormone
• TSH =  Thyroid Stimulating Hormone
• TSOHF Total Sense of Humor Failure
• TTBOMK To the Best of My Knowledge
• TTC = Trying to Conceive
• TTFN Ta Ta for Now
• TTM To The Moderator
• TTYL =  Talk To Ya Later
• TTYL Talk To You Later
• TTYRS Talk To You Real Soon
• TUFD The User File Died
• TUFT = Trans-Uterine Fallopian Transfer
• Tx = Treatment

U

• US, u/s = Ultrasound or ultrasonography
• UTI = Urinary Tract Infection

V

• V =  Vasectomy
• VETLA Very Enhanced TLA
• VR =  Vasectomy Reversal
• Vege = Vegetarian

W

• WAB What, Another Bill
• WAMKSAM Why are My Kitties (Kids) Staring at Me
• WB Welcome Back
• WBC = White Blood Cells
• WBS Write Back Soon
• WDYMBT What do You Mean by That
• WIBAMU Well, I'll be a Monkey's Uncle
• WMMOWS Wash My Mouth Out with Soap
• WTF What the F*?
• WTG Way To Go
• WTH What the H*?
• WYLABOCTGWTR Would You Like a Bowl of Cream to go with That Remark?
• WYLASOMWTC Would You Like a Saucer of Milk with that Comment?
• WYPIWYG What You Printed Is What You've Got
• WYSIAWYG What You See is Almost What You Get
• WYSINWNWYG What You See Is No Where Near What You Get
• WYSINWYG What You See Is NOT What You Get
• WYSIWYG What You See Is What You Get
• WYTYSYDG What You Thought You Saw, You Didn't Get

Y

• YAOTM Yet Another Off-Topic Message
• YHGASPL You Have Got A Serious Problem, Lad!
• YI = Yeat Infection
• YMMV Your Mileage may vary
• YSS You Suck Severely
• YSWUS Yea, Sure Whatever You Say!
• YWSYLS You win some, you lose some

Z

• ZIFT = Zygote Intra-Fallopian Transfer

Old ppls prediction on baby's gender

Went for a dinner with family over d weekend... i was actually a vege on dat day cz it was Sashti day. I did prayer for murugan n was hopin to eat Idly for dinner... Neway, just joined d family gathering n ordered garlic kai-lan stir fry... i can just eat these stuff with rice..

One of MIL's sister was there n she said i mit be carrying a boy bcz i lukd lethargic.. She said if its a girl, i would glow.. hmmm... old ppls theory...

And during one of d functions, MIL's aunt asked me how is her grandson doin... i asked her, hw did sh knw its a boy.. she said it will deffntly b a boy.. hmmm... olden days ppl biasala alwiz want a boy.... spcly in indian comunity they give lotsa preference to boys cz they get to do d final rites for d parents.. hmmm... Hubby too wants a boy after seeing d noty Sheshan boy... probably during his stay at my hse, he made my husband change his preference to a boy cz he will watch football with him while im doin hsework o cooking... So hubby jz wants a partner to do his activities together...

D Masculine body builder Sheshan....Mama's love.

Now coming back to how i feel.... it really doesnt matter if its a boy o girl... i mean like, it has been a very difficult journey TTC itself... So am glad as long as i have a healthy baby..i dun care if its a boy o girl... s long s i give birth to a fully formed baby... d of coz i did not already decide if he/she is gona do medicine o engineering.... He/she will do anything thy feel its right...hubby once said dat he will send our son to Barcelona to play football.. inspired by Messi.. anyway, i will agree if that is what my son wants... o even if my daughter wana do modelling... s long s they know how to make enug money n a decent living.

My prayer to d child...

Dear God,

I want my child to be a good hearted human being later in life. We will give him/her d best education, love and family values that he/she need truout his/her life. I want him/her to be educated, humble, respectful, polite, thoughtful, helpful, loving and a good child. May he/she be blessed with good health n  lead a healthy lifestyle.

Yours lovingly,
Amma n Appa...

Activities planned during d pregnancy....

This pregnancy is very special to me.... i knw every mum would say this but i guess those undergoin ART procedure would agree more...

1.Since then, i wana make every momen very special... hence, this blog writing is one of my effort..but soon, i wana start a pregnancy journal... am lukin for some books online but nothing seem to catch my eyes.. well, perhaps i will just create it myself then... need to buy an album for ths n lotsa decorating stuff... gota rekindle d little gal instinct in me... haha.. neway i loved art n craft tho..

2.I also asked a good-friend/pet-sister of mine to do a pregnancy portfolio during my 7th o 8th month of pregnancy.. she was super exited n so am i... ok 1 task is done...

3.And my baby shower dreams... haha, i know its still a long way to go... but im positive tht i will prgress well with God's blessing ... I shall plan for this wen i hit  d 6th month... so KIV fr time bein..

4. Shopping........... i need some stretchable dresses soon.. my cloths seem to be alitlle tight aroun d waist...Dun wana hurt d litlle baby by wearing tight uncomfortable cloths... so this will be my weekend plan while hubby is away from town.

5. Food........started cukin at home now... but some smell is bothersome n i feel nauseous.. neway, gota develop a healthy menu for me n d baby... dun wana take too much calories, i dun bliv in eating for two.. i just eat as when my body demands... need to go to pasar borong to buy some stuff soon.... i need to depend on hubby fr this..

6. Hse cleaning... hardly clean d hse... part time indon maids r suc a demand now... called one of em n sh said dat she is fully booked for time bein... hmmmmm.... hubby is bz wt work so cant xpct him to do much.. am glad he puts d dishes on d sink after he finish eating.... so probably do what is necessary till i hit 2nd trimester... 1 more month to go... poor goldfishes.. i hardly feed them cz i need to wait till hubby comes back n give em d food.. i dun lik d smell wen i open d aquarium lid.. sorry babies..


n d list will continue when i have new ideas... haha!!!

7 weeks check-up

23 May 2012

Today is my 7th week checkup.. hmmm, what can i say.. probably one of d most amazing momen in my life. Listening 2 d baby's heartbeat for d 1st time..I had goosebumps! Sonographer said dat this will b d last time i will b V-scanned ... haha!! Anyway, saw d baby lukin more developed now.. i cud see d yolk sac n d heartbeat... Yes i said it rite... d heartbeat.. i saw d blood pumping machine working its way awesomely wit 147 hb/min... n heard it too... aww..... had tears in my eyes wen i heard it.. HB indicated how well d pregnancy is progressing.. so am glad there is a really strong heart beat..


Symptoms

Am still hungry as usual...bt not craving for anything.. unlike before i got pregnant, now i dislike sweet n salty food. Had some brown spotting on friday.... Very worried.. Insomnia......back ache continues whenever i travel n started feelin nausea slightly, had d regurgitating reglex but notin came out wen i sat in d car... bt no vomiting yet... n lazy.. haha!! i am not sure how to differentiate bein tired n lazy... they both sound n feel d same to me.. hated d smell of cigarette.. Read an article sumwher dat its a normal respons fr pregnant ladies to respond to certain smell that could be hazardous to d fetus so they feel nauseous... hmmm... mayb.. n i hated loud noises.. i sound like a very fussy pregnant woman... haha.. but im loving it.. skin is still slightly dry around d T-zone n started applyin anti-stretch  mark oil.. mum said datm d earlier u put it, d lesser mark u have.. hmmm.. ill jz flw ur advice maa..

Emotions

Hw do i express my feelings... overwhelmed, happy, joyful, blessed... name it..i have no words to describe how i felt when i heard d heart beat... hubby was astonished as well... n yes, he was smiling ear to ear.. haha!! My baby has a heartbeat now... Now hopin dat it is gona progress well till i see it on d 10th week visit.

Dr's Note

Dr said everytihing luks fine xcpt for some light bleeding in d uterus... i then told him about d spotting. He noted down in d casenote.. Hubby asked how strong is d heart beat... He said, its very strong n hoping to c me again in 3 weeks time. Meanwhile i need to continue my progesteron supp for BD for two weeks n OD for 1 week later. Also proluton inj once every 4 days...Continue my folic acid n resume to normal schedule but not to stress my self too much... shopping is ok n light house work but no heavy lifting. But still no intercourse.. haha!! I mentioned to d Dr dat i have started obimin plus n anmum as well.. he said that is gud if i am tolerating it well... fixed appt in 3 weeks time... i will be 10 weeks by then.. so dat will be 13th of Jun 2012... 

This is how d baby luks like now.... adapted from babycentre.com